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[04 Aug 2005|05:18pm]

x____poetic

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[01 Aug 2005|08:42pm]

new lj

 

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bark bark [01 Aug 2005|05:44pm]
[ mood | loved ]

sometimes i do forget that there are some people out there that actually care about me. they actually are interested if something bad happens and they are glad when i am happy, that feels nice sometimes

it's also way suprising how much my mom trusts me now. i think i've gained all her trust back from that period when i was running ramped and getting in trouble or getting grounded every weekend. she totally trusts me, shes wants me around now and she cares about my well-being. last night we sat infront of the tv, watched lifetime, ate ice cream and talked about girl things... thats way neat.

it gets me very excited when school friends want to talk to me or hang out, it's good to have again. i went way too long without contact with them.

even in spite of my friends and family, i have no problem with alex being the holder of all my attention.

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[30 Jul 2005|11:32am]

the von bondies show was awesome like whoa

here is a cautionary tale:

all right, i know how your mommy always tells you "don't open e-mails if you don't know who sent them" well psh, who cares, right? i learned a lesson.

a few days ago i got an e-mail from some guy saying "i saw you in the play and i really like you. you were so fabulous and so pretty blah blah blah" wellllll you know me. i go over easy for anyone that pays me a compliment so we started e-mailing back and forth and at one point he said to me "do you have  a boyfriend? i hope not." so i replyed and said "yes i do have a boyfriend and it's going  very well" the fact that he asked that question that way really pissed alex off, so now he got concerned.

this guy tells me his name is dawson and is bein wayyyyyyyyy creepy to me and finds my myspace and then IMs me. he's like "WOW WOW you WOW your pictures and some of the stuff you have on here is realllllllllly intriguing me WOW i'm very..excited." and i'm like "what the hell are you saying this to me for?" and he's asking all these way inapopriate question and making me feel like SHIT. uh. at the point i was like "look, i have a boyfriend and you are 19, even if you weren't i wouldn't touch you at all. i'm not interested. you can talk to me as long as you arn't talking like you want to get into my internet pants." and he's like "okay, i'm sorry, those pictures just distracted me. abbi, i really like you and i just want to be a friend, someone you can trust and confide in"

and then he says "i can't lie to you anymore, my name is not Dawson." and i said something like "duh, you didn't expect me to find out thats a fake name, i'm not that retarded" and he said "i know i know. i'm someone you know and i really like you and you like me to."

at this point i am wayyyyyyyyy freaked out and i said "tell me who you are or i'm never talking to you again" and he said "i can't tell you who i am abbi, i'm sorry i just can't" so i said "then leave me the hell alone, never talk to me again"

i am so scared. i can't talk  to anyone because it might be him i can't do anything with out thinking i'm being watched. maybe i'm being over dramatic as usual, it just ahhhh i'm so scared.

alex e-mailed him telling him hes gunna kick his ass and he's retarded and saying fuck a lot because thats what good boyfriends do. so "dawson" messages me saying i'm so sorry blah blah blah and i'm like leave me alone, i hate you

and i'm still scared. he e-mailed alex back saying "better watch your mouth because you don't know who i am" and ahhhhhh i don't know what to do. i need to get this off my mind, but i can't.

i need to do something right now. i need help.

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[25 Jul 2005|07:47pm]
[ mood | creative ]

hedwig can tell you how i feel today:

 

last time i saw you, i could not recognize

cos you had blood on your face

and i had blood in my eyes

but i could swear by your expression

that the pain down in your soul

was the same, as the one down in mine

thats the pain, that cuts a straight line down to the heart

we call it love

 

hi friends. whats new? i'm glad the play is over because now i can hang out with you and not have to be like "eeey, i'm sorry... i'm booked!" hey you!!! yeah, you know who you are. why don't you call me? you say you wanna hang out and you say "i'll call ya!" but you don't. oh well.

i'm thinking about starting a community for hopeless romanitcs like me. anyone wanna help?

i'm going to go paint a picture

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[21 Jul 2005|07:56pm]

so i did stupid stuff yesterday and i scared myself and i scared other people. i felt really bad especially about scaring Alex so much. as well as my body collapsing and all that other stuff.

so the result isssssss. i'm gunna stay clean from everything now. don't give me any pills, anything to drink or anything to smoke. kay?

good.

i'm sure you all care about my well-being a whole lot, huh?

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drivers ed is over finally!! yay

i was enjoying getting to know the kids, though. maybe they will cross my path again sometime in my life.

or not, either way.

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livejournal is stupid. i'm thinking about dis-joining all my communities. we'll see.

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[19 Jul 2005|09:59pm]

i'm not really sure any of my friends care about me anymore.

you say you'll call... nothing. i try to hang out... no one can.

i've lost all my friends. when i get back to school, i'm afraid i'll end up haveing to get all new friends.

i know i'm always talking about how much i hate girls, but really i miss having girl friends.

i miss having friends period.

the only person i really hang out with now is alex and other kids

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[13 Jul 2005|11:29am]
To Kill A Mocking bird

put on my Freedom Community Theatre

I play Mayella on Friday @ 7. Sunday @ 3 and next saturday @7. it's 8 dollas

talk to me to get directions
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hiiiii [10 Jul 2005|09:03pm]
[ mood | satisfied ]

sup fools.

i'm back in town.

not too much to say. i really want my computer back.

ian is my wifey

today i had fun at alex's

i miss my amy bo bamy and my tara.

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[28 Jun 2005|10:01pm]

acidic__

 

the show on sunday was awesome. half stache and travisty & the screwups, i don't even care.

los kung fu monkeys make me squeal like an orgasming pig.

i'll put pictures on here when i get my computer back

one last thing:

i <3 alex.

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[25 Jun 2005|07:02pm]
i'm way excited for the show tomorrow. you don't even know eieieie
today i saw batman: begins. it was great, it was equal to my expectations.
alex needs to get a lisence and a cell phone.
brianna needs to answer her phone.
amy needs to come play with me, i'm bored and i haven't seen her in ages.

my computer's hard drive broke so now i'm useing the one in my dads room and it is slow.
i have nothing to write
i can't wait for tomorrrow!
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confessions [18 Jun 2005|07:37pm]

i'm leaving for lubock, texas in the morning with renee, danika and kyrstin

the boy that crashed the car that killed chelsea is charged with negligent triple homicide

i miss alex

i have a love/ hate relationship with surveys

 

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[15 Jun 2005|05:37pm]

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i <3 amy bo bamy [14 Jun 2005|09:20pm]
[ mood | calm ]

imxaxcliche: meow.
coinOperated amy: youz a kitty cat
imxaxcliche: woof!
imxaxcliche: i'm a doggy in disguise
coinOperated amy: youz a puppy dog
imxaxcliche: fool
imxaxcliche: you just think i'm a cat
imxaxcliche: actually i'm a lady
imxaxcliche: that things shes a dog in disguise as a cat
coinOperated amy: hahahahahaha
coinOperated amy: you are crazy
imxaxcliche: ah man. you win.
imxaxcliche: i'm a crazy.

alex is great, i really like going out with him i hope thsi is a good relationship. today i hung out with ashley wells for a bit and i had fun. the drummer for the big spank and his girlfriend decided to sit with us and join our conversation at cafe o. ...yeah

meow meow meow meow.

time for a deep thought with abbi: who deciphers irrational fear from rational fear? what is a rational fear anyway?

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pictures [09 Jun 2005|08:09pm]

i'm putting some pictures of the past little while.

 

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read this if you care about me [09 Jun 2005|04:02pm]

Tuesday night my best friend from Texas died. I lived in Waco, Texas until I was 10, I hadn't seen any of my friends from there in two years and I know regret that.

Chelsea was riding in the car with another girl and three boys. She and two boys were in the back seat while Jackie, whom I knew, sat in the passenger seat and some prick was driving. They were going 90 mph down a country road and none of the kids were wearing their seatbelts. The driving ran the car into a tree and the three kids in the back were thrown and killed including Chelsea.

I'm leaving at 8:30 tomorrow morning to go to the funeral.  Don't worry about me, I'll be all right.

ON A LIGHTER NOTE

I am now dating Mr. Alex Plebzeba. I wasn't sure if I wanted to a couple days ago when he asked me, but times like these you can really tell who cares about you and I know he does. That makes me happy. =D

 

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[06 Jun 2005|08:42pm]
[ mood | read this ]

Avalanche is sullen and too thin
She starves herself to rid herself of sin
And the kick is so divine when she sees bones beneath her skin
And she says:
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me?

Chris is all dressed up and acting coy
Painted like a brand new Christmas toy
He's trying to figure out if he's a girl or he's a boy
He says:
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me?

Doodle takes dad's scissors to her skin
And when she does relief comes setting in
While she hides the scars she's making underneath her pretty clothes
She sings:
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me?

Therapy is Speedie's brand new drug
Dancing with the devil's past has never been too fun
It's better off than trying to take a bullet from a gun
And she cries:
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me?

JT gets all fucked up in some karaoke bar
After two drinks he's a loser after three drinks he's a star
Getting all nostalgic as he sings "I Will Survive"
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me?
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me?

You should see my scars
You should see my scars
You should see my scars
You should see my scars
Try to comprehend that which you'll never comprehend
Try to comprehend that which you'll never comprehend
Just try to comprehend that which you'll never comprehend
Try to comprehend that which you'll never comprehend
You should see my scars
You should see my scars

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join these!!! [05 Jun 2005|01:57pm]

flashyr_hotfuck

 

street_whores
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[02 Jun 2005|09:33pm]
[ mood | ahhhhh ]

ah man, i have no idea whats going on right now. i feel really guilty and really great at the same time.

i'll get over it. i love boys

i love love. i love kissing. i love boys.

la de da.

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i can't beleive i'm putting this in my livejournal ahahah [31 May 2005|04:39pm]

so today i am happy. today i didn't know what would happen. but then alex and rob called and said they were coming over so i was happy.

so they come and rob is drunk and we walked down to a park near my house. rob is doing stupid drunk things and alex and i are just giggling at him. and then rob passes out.

after seven months i'd almost forgot how lovely first kisses are... sigh.

yeah, so alex and i hooked up laying on a park bench with rob at our feet. hahahahaha
it was a happy time. and then we walked home and he held my hand and gave me a hug and left.

jesus, i'm vulnerable. but maybe i have always liked him. but don't think i'm going to rush into something just cos we made out!

oh no, i'm smarter than that, right?

 

what am i turning into?! i can't beleive i'm actually putting this stuff on the internet these days!

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